lackluster. lacking. low. i have no energy today, nothing to give and even less to say. i am tired, so tired, more tired than i can find rationale for. is this my brain disease? blarg. onward, forward, progress, go.
today i will remind myself that gratitude is a forceful tool, a weapon to wield against the illness of my mind.
i am grateful for a busy and smooth day at work, grateful to come home with money in my pockets. i'm grateful to be able to pay bills and feed the dogs. i'm grateful for family and friends who care. i'm grateful to have a birthday to celebrate next week. i'm grateful to be moving forward in this process of recovery such that days may come in the future when it's not such a struggle just to avoid falling in a well.